Lost In Florence: Change
It is my second week in Egypt, all I do is still eat and catch up with friends, (but mostly eat). No matter how many people I know here, or how well I know the places, I can’t help but to always feeling like a stranger who is out of place.
However, it was easier for me to just give up and stay in Egypt, it was easier to just adjust to how things are and accept that I can’t change anything about my life. I mean, my life wasn’t so bad, everything came to me the easy way. I didn’t put any effort into anything, and I was just too damn comfortable,.. It was a safe choice with no consequences.
But after going through with my decision, I realized that not giving in is worth it, doing something about my life to change it, no matter how difficult and drastic that change is, is a million times better than giving in to routine.
Honestly though, who on earth wants to live a life so familiar, in which today is a copy of yesterday which was a copy of the day before?
Who on earth would want to live in familiarity that’s so sickening, and a routine that’s simply chronic? Who wants to simply exist, rather than really live?
I doubt anyone would want to live that way, no matter what they tell themselves.
That change doesn’t mean leaving the country in particular, that’s simply my way of changing my life to the way I want it to be. Significant change comes in a million different forms depending on different people.
To some it may be quitting a job, it might be getting a divorce, it might be changing a major. All the scary, uncertain stuff that one wishes to do but is too scared of the unknown consequences.
All the scary things that make us just settle for the life we have in fear of ruining what’s left of our lives.
After moving and finally settling in, I must admit, It’s difficult to leave the good things behind for something better for yourself.
It’s difficult to break the routine, and become uncomfortable with changes. It’s difficult leaving what you once called home for something uncertain.
And it’s certainly difficult to take that first step after your decision.
But it’s most definitely worth it, and I would have never realized that if it weren’t for the fact that I’m here now for the holidays. I wasn’t happy in Egypt, I was just too comfortable. I now know that I did the right thing, and I wouldn’t change a thing about my decision to leave.
It’s not selfish to change your life into the way you want it to be, you deserve to have a chance to re-shape yourself. In the end, anything worth having, is definitely not close to easy.
