The Mommy Diaries: Striking A Balance

Mommy commercials used to warm my heart. The ones where the toddler is running around a sparkling clean house and the supermodel mom is smiling from ear to ear.

In comes reality, and let me tell you, if my house is sparkling clean, it’s only because my kids are asleep. And when I look like a super model it’s because I’m asleep… and dreaming.

Being a full time mom is a challenge. One I accept with open and exhausted arms. But somewhere around the millionth diaper change, you begin to feel like you’re disappearing. Usually that’s the part where you close your eyes and take one last breath before you drown in the abyss that is being a stay at home mom.

I’ve decided though its time to swim, its time to fight my way out of it.

But how can you find that balance?

I have no idea. It just kind of happens. All of a sudden you realize that your kids don’t really need you to watch them sleep. And your house wont burn down the instant you begin to have fun with your friends. Because all these things make me a better mother, a better wife, and an all around better person.

I’m still getting there, but I’m damn near close. I think its once you realize that its ok to not be with your kids 24/7. It’s okay to let someone help. It’s okay to leave your hectic life and go get your hair done. Once I realized that, wow what a difference.

I used to have trouble breathing at the thought of leaving everything behind and going out with my friends. But after spending so much time inside my bubble, I realized that my friends make my life so much better. Drama and all…

When people used to ask me if I would ever work again, my auto response was always “I don’t know… maybe when the kids are in school.” But here I am, working, going out, and getting my hair done. And I feel like I’ve been pulled out of the twilight zone.

WE SAID THIS: Can a mom have it all?